Fatherhood...

It's really been a fun almost 10 months :)  Keagan is now sitting up on his own, he still falls over sometimes when he tries to reach for something behind him.  The best part about him falling over, is he never tries to stop himself; the head goes first then the rest of the body.  When he stands on my lap we play the "falling game" where I let go and he falls to one side or the other, I let him get so far then I catch him and bring him back up.  He loves it!  After two, he is smiling and giggling...the best part is that his hands are usually in or near his mouth.  His hands aren't out at his sides balancing or bracing for the impact of the possible crash to the ground.

What freedom that must be in life; to be able to just let go and not worry about where to go, how far you fall, in a way knowing that you'll get picked up again.  What does that look like in life, giving someone else complete control and not really being too worried about the consequence?

Two thoughts...

1) I wish we would enjoy the ride a little bit more.  Worry less about the future and enjoy where we are in the moment...live freely in knowledge that you are protected and looked after by another.

2) I know I want Keagan to start crawling, but I am trying to enjoy everything he is doing now before that happens.  At this point he is closer to walking I think.  I can't force him to do anything he doesn't want to do...it's' not about me, it's about him.  Ultimately this whole fatherhood is thing is determined more by how he feels than it is by how I feel.  If it's really about me, then this whole fatherhood thing is a sham.
  

Listening to "Faking Life" by Five Iron frenzy