Today was a good day, filled with tons of memories. It's funny how one day can make me look back over eight years of coaching and see all the matches, games, wins, losses, motivational speeches and practices... and how all of that seems to get replaced with talks about life, family and future; smiles, tears, hugs, thank you's.
Just for a moment I was proud of something, I'm not sure what exactly, but maybe at some point along the way my job worked...maybe I did something right for once. Maybe I did MORE than just say some numbers before "TEAM on three..."
Earlier this week I was told by a former player, that something I said 7 years ago stuck. I thought that was pretty cool.
Earlier today I got a text from a former player letting me though that while watching a volleyball game she had thought about what my reaction would be in that specific situation.
Some days I do a better job than others, some days I try harder than others...
(the above was written in July of 2012)
I had started writing this blog almost a year ago and now; Recent events in the last couple weeks have made me think a lot about this same topic and so I think that now is a good time to finish (and or repeat) some of my thoughts.
I got some "presents" this past week. These weren't gift cards to Best Buy or a new box of golf balls; these "presents" are far more valuable. I will always keep them because they are the reason I started coaching in the first place. They make me smile, laugh and even cry a little. Some good memories...but none really about winning. That is what grabs me every time I think about it...what sticks with you in the end? Is it the winning? Or is it more than that? I think that as coaches we can get bogged down by the "W" and ultimately measure our self worth by that. Now obviously our paycheck at the end of the month might get measured by that, I won't deny that; but I think in the end, if our players only measure us (coaches) by the Win-Loss column, we probably did something wrong. That's how I feel...maybe that makes me a bad coach by your standard, or maybe that makes me a good one. Who knows?
Here is what the events in the last couple of weeks have shown me...
For a long time now, one of my prayers has been to ask God if I am in the right place, and along with that, asking what He wants me to do where I am now. One thing that I often struggle with is seeing myself through God's eyes and seeing myself how He sees me instead of how the world sees me. It's hard because the world defines success in so many different ways, you never know where you fit. So, I am often searching for words from God to help ease my uncertainty about who I am. I think that God speaks to us in many different ways and I know that He was speaking through these "presents" I was given. I'm not sure if that makes sense, but I think we can find the answers we are looking for...you just have to look. So, thank you for the presents, it really means a lot to me.
I have no idea what is going to happen next, but I am excited! And the best part is I can move forward knowing that somewhere along the way I did something right.
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